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I Escaped

Oct 23rd, 2011 In: Voices of Violence By: admin Comments 2

After watching the film Sin by Silence I felt very grateful to have gotten out when I did. I was in a domestic violence relationship as a teenager. He was my first boyfriend, my first love, and the first man I was with. He was charming and protective, then he was jealous and demanding. I had all the signs yet I remained “in love” and submissive. I thought it was a phase whenever he would call me names, I thought it was just because he was angry although not necessarily at me. However, the verbal and emotional abuse escalated to physical abuse. He was a drug user, I later discovered. His addiction made him into someone completely different and that made him beat me.

Fortunately, I escaped before he had the chance to take my life, although he did try many times. However, although I am not in jail like all these women, I too feel very trapped still. After leaving him, two weeks later I found out I was pregnant. I kept the baby, she is a girl. I love her to death but I feel horrible that because of my stupidity she will grow up without a father, and I know it’s not my fault he beat me, but I feel that if I would have gotten out sooner, she would not have to go through this. That is why I feel for all the women in jail because I know a lot have children and I would give anything for my daughter, thus I could not imagine my life without her.